Relationships, namely such with the opposite sex and God's funny little things with those.

Relating with the opposite sex has always been something I've struggled with. I've never done it "right." All too often I've confused lust with love and all too often I've acted upon that. I've also tried filling myself with the approval I occasionally got from guys, rather than the approval I always get from God. 

Lately I've done a better job of differing the two feelings, and not acting upon the lustful ones. I've been praying for God to not only fill me with Him, but also to bring me my one true love. Most of my friends are in relationships that seem to be ones that will last, ones that are God willed. And they're all so flippin cute ;p. But sometimes, especially when I'm around them, I feel alone. 

Sooo, I prayed and still do pray for Him to bring me a companion, and whilst praying, I am assured that he will come, and I am urged to keep my faith strong (Isaiah 7:9!!). 

When a certain handsome fellow started to show interest in me, I was stoked! I mean, he was suuper cute and I knew him from church, uh, score? I guess not. I had asked my friend to give him my number so we could start texting, cause thats what us teenagers do nowadays, and she did. I anxiously awaited his text, and it came, but so did an amazingly strong sense from God. I sat in that moment, not even yet had I replied to his initial text, and I asked God what I was feeling. He said no. He urged me not to pursue it like I had originally thought I would. He basically said, 

"Just be friends."

"What the?! How long have I asked and waited for You to bring me someone? And here someone is and you're telling me no?! But, God, he's cute!"

"Be still, and know that I am God.... friends"

Mind you, that is not a simple conversation with Him, thats more like 800 different conversations all simplified into one three sentence tidbit. 

So I'm still waiting, I'm still praying, and I'm still hoping. I'm trying my best to let God bring him to me and to not go out looking for someone I think will do, which is proving to not be so easy for me, but I think I'm holding up well. 

He also gave me this scripture from Daniel 10:12

"Do not fear, for from the first day you set your heart to understand, and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard"

Okay :)