Woah.

I got a new devotional bible on Monday and started the year of devotions right then and there, I was going to read them every morning, I was excited to start. I didn't know how quickly they'd become so eye opening. 

The next day, I woke up suuper depressed and stressed out about everything. I thought the only way to fix it was to break up with Aaron, so I did, I didn't really want to, but it had to happen. Little did I know, the devotion was on loneliness, I found that out last night when I finally looked at it. 

I felt God pretty much yelling at me at that point, I haven't been putting enough of my focus on him. I don't know what would have been different if I had just woken up and done my devotion Tuesday morning and pushed off all the other stuff was going through my mind.  We probably would have still broken up, but it would have been a bit easier. Even if I would have caught up on it later on in the day, I would have been able to sleep better that night. 

God needs to come first in  my life, I don't know why that is so hard for me.